APU tells me to GO AWAY!

within the first two weeks of school, APU told me to go away! I come here and now you are telling me to leave. okayyyyyy............And I think that I am going to. I have been on a few mission trips and all of my experiences have been wonderful. Every time I feel like I got so much more from them than I did for them. They have shown me what it means to live a life without a focus on material possessions. They have shown me the joy that can be found in the hard times through Christ. They have taught me so much about myself and I do not think they know that. I want to go on a mission trip and not feel this way. Doesn’t that sound odd? I want to go and get nothing back. Just go to love them, even if they don’t love me. I feel like this is what God has called us to do. It’s easy to love those who love you that comes naturally. But to love those who hate you, who don’t even like you, that’s impressive. I want to go away and demonstrate God’s love with out saying anything. APU is obsessed with the Saint Francis of Assisi quote, “preach the Gospel at all times and when necessary use words.” As much as I feel this quote is overused, here I am using it! I want to go and not use words, just actions and love. I want to go and study somewhere and experience the culture there. I want to be immersed in an uncomfortable place and love people. I want God to place me where He wants me and right now I don’t know where that is. I would like to think it is in South Africa, but maybe it is somewhere else. I pray that what breaks God’s heart would break mine and that he will open my eyes to where I am to go. I want to go away. Doesn’t that make you feel all warm and fuzzy, you need to just go away!
This is me.


and I am going away right now!